I’m sitting in a friend’s home. The kids are asleep. The dog no longer wants to attack me. I’m feeling accomplished.
This night has really solidified how much I truly love children. I love their innocent outlook on the world. I love their joy and exuberance. I love their curiosity. I love the interactions that young siblings have with one another: the bickering, the bossiness, the kindness, the protectiveness, the inside jokes & memories. I love their need to be “tucked in,” and for stories and lullabies. I love the odd things they spout off. I love them each for who they are. Children, no matter how hyper, how loud, how picky, how bossy…are all a unique creation, made in the image of God….and I may never have one that is genetically my own.
Before you start feeling sorry for me, let me explain. In addition to my PCOS, I also have a folic acid issue and blood clotting issue that could make pregnancy improbable and dangerous. When I found this out, I wasn’t sad. Shocking, I know, but for as long as I can remember, I’ve never felt a need to have biological children. When I was a little girl, I asked my mother for a black baby doll. I also always spoke of having a set of Chinese girl twins!
If it’s in God’s plan for me to have biological children, then so be it. I will be extremely grateful for the blessing of being able to grow and nurture one of God’s precious creations in my womb. If not, I’ll also be happy! To all of my PCOS cysters who are struggling with infertility, please remember that it’s all in God’s hands. Every human being is conceived for a reason. Every human being is conceived at the exact time that they’re meant to me. The time might not be pleasant or convenient for us, but there’s a purpose in it. Every human being is worth something and made in the image of God. This goes not only for babies and children, but adults.
This was all basically a long winded way of saying that I love children! We should treat children well and FEED them well. As a part of my ode to children, I’d like to share the recipe most popular with kids, my chocolate chip muffins! These are gluten/grain free, dairy free, refined sugar free, low glycemic, and high protein.
3/4 cup almond flour
Scant 3 tbsp cocoa powder
Pinch of salt
1/4 tsp baking soda
3 tbsp raw honey
3 tbsp unsweetened apple sauce
2 tsp vanilla
1/4 cup dark chocolate chips
In large bowl, whisk together almond flour, salt, baking soda, and cocoa until thoroughly combined.
In a separate bowl, whisk together honey and applesauce. Add in eggs, one at a time. Stir in the vanilla.
Pour the liquid mixture into the dry. Use a spatula to thoroughly emulsify the batter.
Mix in the chocolate chips.
Pour into muffin cups. Add 5-7 chocolate chips on top of the batter in each cup. Bake at 350 degrees for 13-15 minutes.